A new phase in Motherhood

It interests me to think of the mother I want to become. When Tao was a baby I attended to his every need. That's the mother I wanted to be. But now that he is blossoming into a toddler there is so much more to it.


How do I want to handle certain situations? I remind myself often: do I not want him to do a certain thing because it is not convenient for me or because it is dangerous? Sometimes at the park I find myself wanting him to stay in a certain area. When I try to turn him back to that area he lets his whole body go limp. If I take a step back I realize : Why should he stay in this area? I then understand I was trying to keep him there for my own laziness. Why not let him explore!!! As long as it is safe of course.

I make mistakes everyday and I take it hard when those mistakes come to my mothering. Although there is much to learn and better my parenting skills from those mistakes.

I never want to hold him back for my convenience! This can be hard on days were I am tired but I aim to let Tao explore and experience the world around him. Let him get dirty with nature and art! Let him experiment with his voice and make loud sounds.

I am sometimes nervous of what is ahead. I did hear an interesting concept that I love: When parents loose it it's because they are trying to control their children's behavior.

I have no interest in controlling Tao. I am however interesting in guiding him.